I had my first ever energy reading today, with Amy at Terra Nova, and it was quite an amazing session.

Not ever having done anything like this, I hadn’t been sure what to expect. I had met Amy at the Wise Ways of Women forum - she had posted this great post about reading the energy patterns of the tremendously wealthy. Her readings there were so interesting and really resonated with me, so I contacted her to see about doing personal energy readings.

The reading was done over the phone, and it was an easy and relaxed session.

The Issue: Creating “Castles”

What I wanted was a reading of my energy around financial abundance.

You see, when I look around me, I know that I am very good at “creating buttons” - all the small things in life come easily and quickly to me.

Being able to manifest buttons all the time makes for a very comfortable life. Parking spots, great appointment times, no waiting in line, money in the mail right when I need it, a client request whenever I start thinking about work, schedule changes, great opportunities - these are the kinds of buttons I create all the time.

But recently I’ve been thinking about some of the castles that I want to create in my life - the big dreams. One of them is going beyond manifesting just the amount of money I need, to manifesting financial independence.

Abraham says that it’s just as easy to create castles as it is buttons.

I’m committed to getting to that feeling of ease.

From Resistance to Clarity

But I’ve been feeling some resistance around the topic of “big money” in my life, so I thought it would be a great issue to work with this morning with Amy.

And now I’m feeling more clarity. It’s like she gave me the beginnings of a map, with a spot clearly marked, “You are here” and directions on how to get started on what is a very downstream journey.

She sensed things in my energy that really made me go “Oh! I SEE that now.”

Making Myself a Priority

One of the surprising things I discovered today is that I’ve not been making myself a priority when it comes to money. This completely floored me, because I’ve been working on a lot of self-love and appreciation processes, and to put it bluntly, I feel wonderful about me.

But in the area of money, I’ve not been making myself a priority.

Amy gave me this analogy: When it comes to manifesting, I’m very good at manifesting exactly what I need in my life. It’s like I have all these containers, and I line them up and know that they will get filled. These are all my “needs”, and the money comes in easily and goes out to all the respective needs.

But the problem is, none of those containers is labeled “Me”. It’s this “Me” container that contains the things that go beyond every day needs, the things in the realm of big dreams and desires. This container is the big money container, and not only have I not been making it a priority, I haven’t even been putting it out there to get filled.

And when she described it like that, I knew it was true. My focus is was always on getting the regular “needs” containers filled.

Old Habits, New Habits

Amy sensed that sometime in the past, I’d lived a life where I was always in a “crisis situation” about money.

This was very true.

She pointed out that I’d made this crisis reaction a habit in my daily life even though in reality, I’m no longer in a crisis situation when it comes to money.

Even though things are so comfortable for me now, my mind and my energy are still hovering in the “crisis” stage. And when you’re in that crisis mode, you’re not focusing on yourself as a priority. Your focus is always on fixing the situation.

And that’s where I’ve been.

It’s just a habit. One that I can get rid of (hello, 30 days!) and replace with new, positive and abundance-attracting habits.

Some Processes

Amy suggested that I make it a habit to “pay myself first”. And that I shouldn’t make a big deal out of this - make it a routine, something that I just do as a matter of course.

I have to say, I felt such a surge of resistance come up when she talked about “paying myself first”. But after talking about it for a while longer, the idea of it became much more comfortable.

It’s an expansion thing. I know that whatever money I require comes to me - it’s just a matter of expanding on this amount.

Amy also saw a lot of my energy wanting to be sensual and luxuriant, and suggested that I play around with these feelings of over-the-top abundance. She told me that it’s like there’s this part of me that’s the attractor, and I’m very good at attracting, but I haven’t been focused on attracting things specifically for this part of me.

It’s like I haven’t been taking care of the part of me that is so good at attracting great things into my life.

She’s given me a lot to work with - it’s exciting and I’m really ready to play around with this idea of having fun with luxuriant feelings.

Creating Castles

The reading included so much more than I’ve written here - Amy was able to sense some personal things that were incredibly accurate.

But making myself a priority when it comes to money was the core of the reading.

And now, I feel like I’m on my way to creating castles.

I’m most definitely focused on those castles now!